The Long Goodbye
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What does it mean to mourn today, in a culture that has largely set aside the rituals that acknowledge grief? In the days after her mother died of cancer at the age of 55, Meghan O'Rourke began to create a record of her life as a mourner, trying to capture the paradox of griefits monumental agony and microscopic intimaciesan endeavor that ultimately bloomed into a profound look at how caring for her mother during her illness changed and strengthened their bond.
O'Rourke's story is one of a life gone off the rails, of how losing her motherand separating from her husbandleft her fundamentally altered. But it is also one of resilience, as she watches her family persevere even in the face of immeasurable loss.
Meghan O'Rourke is the author of Halflife, a collection of poetry. She is a cultural critic for Slate, and her essays and poems have appeared in The New Yorker, The Nation, and other publications. She lives in New York.
- The Long Goodbye is in some ways as much about memory as it is about grief. How do you think our memories shape us?
- Have you experienced the loss of someone close to you? If so, what elements of the author's account rang true for you? If not, what aspects of the story did you connect with?
- What does the author mean by "am I really she who has woken up again without a mother" (296)? Does being someone's child, someone's daughter, change once a mother is gone? If so, how?
- How does the author's mother respond emotionally and psychologically to her diagnosis? What was your reaction to these scenes?
- "If I told the story of her death, I could understand it better, make sense of itperhaps even change it" (139). How does the act of writing help the author during her mother's death and in the time after? Have you ever written things down in order to better understand them?
- What rituals or little things bring the author's mother and her loved ones joy in her last days? If you've witnessed or been with a loved one in their final months can you relate to this? What activities or moments come to mind?
- The author argues that in our society mourners are largely left alone with their grief. How does this affect the author? If you have suffered a loss, were you affected by feelings of isolation? What, if anything, might make it easier for mourners to grieve?
- Hamlet and Orpheus, writings by C.S. Lewis and Raymond Carverhow do these characters and works on loss and dying help the author make sense of her experience? What aspects of the grieving process do they unlock for her? Are there characters or stories that have helped you define loss?
- How does the author begin to "experience" her mother after her death? Where does she experience her presence, and what encounters give her solace?
- "We are the words; we are the music; we are the thing itself. And I see this when I have a shock… There is a pattern hid behind the cotton wool" (Virginia Woolf, 289). How does Woolf's idea that there is, in the author's words, "an order behind our existence," give O'Rourke hope? Do you find these words comforting?
- How does the author feel about the role of hospitals in death today? Hospice? What might we do to make dying less bureaucratic, in her view? In yours?
- In the time leading up to her mother's death, the author reflects on memories of her childhood. How do memories bring us comfort? Can memories also be a way to honor those who have died?
- The author writes about how her mother's illness affected each member of her family differently. Are our family roles redefined by a loss?